When Our Hearts Break

Sometimes we break our own hearts

We come to the jolting realization that the thoughts we've held aren't honest

Or true

Or healthy.

We lie to ourselves.

We awake one day with a hollowness so deep within our being it feels we'll never be whole again

We can't breathe

The world seems bleak

And there's no place to lay blame

Because it was you.

It was me.

I reached into my own chest and squeezed until there was nothing left

And then 

Eventually

When the hollowness threatens to consume

You understand

You accept

That the only thing to do

Is keep putting one foot in front of the other

Rebuild yourself

Rebuild your life

Maybe you walk a lonely path for a while

Maybe for always

But if you become someone who's company you enjoy

It's not so bad

The hollow is there

It's waiting for me.

But "life goes not backwards 

Nor tarries with yesterday"

So forward I go

A girl and her van.

And if my heart is sad...

At least I know I still have the capacity to feel.

And what a beautiful gift that is.

Sincerely,
~Placebo Poet